Lost, without a hand to hold. He was gone from my life. In an instant I became a widow.I walk down this lonely beach with a stick in my hand and the sand between my toes. This was our spot. we loved to look out into the vast ocean and dream of our life together. It's not the same without Jack here holding my hand. I remember it like it was yesterday.

We had only been married for about three hours when Jack and I went to the beach for the first time together. Holding hands,skipping rocks. That's when I told him. I was pregnant. I knew before the wedding, but I wanted to tell him after the wedding, to make it more special. He was elated. So was I.

Three months later I lost the baby; stillborn. Three months after that, I lost Jack. I have nothing anymore, but this stick in my hand, and the sand between my toes.