That letter I almost-wrote? I almost told you today through a text. It wouldn't have come out the same. The "Hey I almost wrote you a letter saying..." text... I can't imagine the response I would have gotten.

Instead you told me to runaway. Runaway to see you. To LIVE with you. To leave my life behind that I'm apparently messing up and too young to be living. Live with you in a state I've never visited to an apartment I've never even seen in pictures. To an address I've never sent a letter to...

What to do, what to do? When I asked, you said leave, because that is what you would do in my situation. A situation that you yourself haven't been in. 80/20 in love/not sure means you bail in a relationship. Does that mean I'm already being set up for failure? Not sure what to do. What does that mean? Leaving New York? I just don't know. I should've just stuck to a letter.