I felt I had nothing to lose. Nothing to gain either.
"Mom, I don't feel like going to school today!" I yelled at six o'clock this morning, while she yelled at me from downstairs.
For the past 3 years of high school, I never fitted in. I just had one friend. Her name was Jasmyne. But she never fitted in, like me. So we struggled our way through high school, and all we had was each other.
But today, I just could not take it anymore. I looked forward to graduation in a few months, but everyday I had to look forward to abuse, bullying, tears, hurt, pain, and the such. Now, I just looked forward to something different, something better. And that "something" did not include life.
Today, I felt I had nothing to lose. Nothing to gain either. So in my mind, I jumped. I leaped from life, and let go... and died.
But in reality, I just didn't go to school today.