People always said that I was like a coin. I had two sides.

No one really knew what side they were speaking to. I'd always laugh it off and say I as a Gemini by nature. I had two personalities. I had two ways of looking at things. I was two people.

Until one of them died. The happy side. The reasonable side. The rational side. The RIGHT side. For some reason I just stopped being a double act.

What was left was wrong. I am wrong now. Many people had left me when that side died. My sister would say that it was just tarnished, I could polish it up and have that happier side shine bright again. I didn't want to brighten up anymore. I was sick of having two reactions, two opinions. Double trouble, I say.

Depression was something I had fallen in love with. I couldn't live without it, the absence of this happiness was okay for me. I could wallow and indulge in myself and my flaws. Happiness meant doing things for other people. It meant having to actively love. I couldn't love anymore. My wife had left me, my kids didn't want to know me.

I was a coin with two faces. One of the faces marred and scorched. Blurred into obscurity... and I was okay with this. I am perfectly okay with this.

Are you okay with this? Choose your side and be okay with it. We really can't be two of anything. You are one side. What one?

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Anglea over 7 years ago

I really liked the way you used this photo prompt and could identify with the two sides of the personality.

DoctorMikeReddy over 7 years ago

I'm in a bad place right now. This is exactly how I feel. If it's not autobiographical for you it's exceptional writing. If it is, you aren't alone.

DoctorMikeReddy over 7 years ago

I'm in a bad place right now. This is exactly how I feel. If it's not autobiographical for you it's exceptional writing. If it is, you aren't alone.

ganymeder over 7 years ago

What a philosophical piece! Great job.

CiaraAoife_ over 7 years ago

Thank you everyone for your lovely comments! :)

CiaraAoife_ over 7 years ago

Thank you everyone for your lovely comments! :)

CiaraAoife_ over 7 years ago

Thank you everyone for your lovely comments! :)

CiaraAoife_ (joined over 7 years ago)

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