The lamp wouldn't turn on and I had to sleep in the dark. I had to imagine what was lurking without light. I was afriad at first and then my eyes adjusted. My pupils opened up. In the morning the sun came in a few strands at a time and I realized that I was still alive and the monsters, goblins, all the things I'm afraid of didn't get me. The light doesn't have to be on to feel safe. Safety is still there with light. I listen to my dog snore and she snorts. She is fat and I feel like its my fault. I try to walk her but she always wants to stop and sniff. There are walks and there are sniffy walks. I think my dog would be much happier if I just let her get so fat that she finally explodes. I wouldn't like that though.